Thursday, September 20

Here I am again, little heavier and once again wanting to loose the weight. I keep wondering when it will finally click... but I think slowly but surely I'm getting it.... the idea that I can't jump on the bandwagon for a few weeks and then resort to eating poorly or let my workouts fall off track, I need to just put my nose to the ground keep at it and not expect anything other then feeling better and know in my heart that the weigh loss will follow.

today TOM is here and the scale this morning read 209!!!! 209!!!! but when I was on it on Tuesday it was only 206 as I listed in week 1.

biggest thing at this point is really and truly starting to act/think/pretend I am pregnant! I want to become pregnant and now I need to really get my mind around that so I'm being better to myself so I can be better able to enjoy growing/carrying a healthy baby for 9 months.

Tuesday, April 3

20 pounds in 10 weeks...... this is the challenge my personal trainer has set out for me. Week one done, pounds lost n/a as it's "that time of the month" who can really say for sure... I'm staying away from the scale for now.

Biggest changes I've made since last posting:

  • We have a pup now and he gets me out for a nightly 20-30 minute walk everyday! Big bonus!
  • I eat breafast every morning, granted it's usually the same thing and my pt would like me to ad some variety, it is a huge leap considering that for years I have not been eating breakfast period
  • having a personal trainer. very lucky! met Nancy at a tradeshow I was shooting and through some conversation we have worked out an agreement that suits us both, and we both benefit from one and others expertise!
  • down so far 12/13lbs, petering on 196.something (again that time of the month). realizing I could have made more gains or rather losses in that last 2 months but I'm not beating myself up about it, still made progress and now it's time to get a little more serious.
  • Journally/recording my food and sending it to Nancy (pt) this is big cause I know someone is going to review what I have eaten! oh dear! the embarrasement if I don't stay on track!