Thursday, December 7

Day 3

Oh so typical of the ugly cycle I seem to spin in and out of frequently!!

So here I am and I haven't posted in a month and I am proud to tell you I'm on day 3 of a different eating plan. I will tell anyone I'm the queen bee when it comes to my dvd workout collection and collection of books. Well maybe not Queen bee but more then some I'm sure. So what am I giving a try this time?................. You: On a diet, Waist Management...... that's WAIST not weight. I don't know exactly what it is but the things I've read so far and the eating etc just seem to click, kinda like things are falling into place. I know what I'm suppose to do and eat but this time its making more senses to me then any other time over the last couple of years.

So like I said today is Day 3 of 14. I'm walking 30 minutes a day and eating as outlined. I made the garden veggie soup and cucumber salad and was totally blown away by how good they actually are. Also made the Mediterranean chicken with w. kidney beans Tuesday night and eat the second serving last night for dinner.

Some info http://www.realage.com/doctorCenter/Articles.aspx?aid=10447

So here's the breakdown

- suggestion is to eat the same thing for breakfast and lunch to minimize your food choices. It's proven that people who do this loose more weight
- adds up to about 1300 to 1500 calories a day and I haven't felt famished or overly hungry

Breakfast: whole wheat toast with 1 tbsp of PB + tea w/s.milk
Snack 1: piece of fruit or probiotic yogurt options
Lunch: Garden Veggie soup + cucumber salad
Snack 2: probiotic yogurt w/ a fist full of raisins or mandarin/tangerine orange
Dinner: list of options including recipes
Dessert: recipes provided but I'm going with the 1 oz. of dark (70% + cocoa) chocolate
Snack 3: optional and same as snack 2 options

So far so good. Tonight I'm making Royal Provence Pasta! The recipes are simple and straight forward. Had to buy a few new things but have yet to come across some ingredient that I haven't heard of or couldn't find at the regular grocery store. so that's a definite bonus.

Wednesday, November 8

Day 14

Not feelin' so hot today. Got the heating pad shooked up and feelin' toasty. The only things that's keeping me going today unfortunately. Massage tonight though so I'm definitely looking forward to that!

Massage was great and knocked me right out. Had dinner and then fell asleep on the couch, in bed by 9:15pm!!!!!!!! Holy cow!

Meal
1 - toast w/PB
2 - apple + 3 graham crackers
3 - apple
4 - flat bread w/salsa, lf sour cream + cheese
5 - blue label hambergers w/cheese + bun
6 -

Water - 96 fl.oz.

Tuesday, November 7

Day 13

Are you paying attention to how your time is spent?
Days don't get shorter. Our attention spans do. How can summer be over in a blink while it seems like the weekend will never get here? Because we're not paying attention. Five days out of seven, we're waiting for something else to happen in the future, and we don't take advantage of the day that we hold in our pocket. Have you ever had someone ask what you did last week- or even yesterday- and had trouble coming up with an answer? You probably wouldn't have had any problem at all if your time were spent on something meaningful for you. Don't wait for tomorrow! Ignore the calendar and work with one day at a time. Fill that one day with stuff you'll pay attention to, the stuff that memories are made of. A little bit of focus will help you get rid of that hectic blur. www.sparkpeople.com

Meal
1 - toast w/pb + s.milk
2 - veggies + dip
3 - leftovers - 2 sm. chicken fajitas
4 - orange + cheese + graham crackers w/PB
5 - egg, bacon, potatoe
6 -

Water 64 fl.oz.

Monday, November 6

Day 12

I got on the scale this weekend and I have definitely dropped so far and I have yet to start my TJammin' I'm down to 202.4lbs (5.5lbs) I realize this will probably start to slow now but it's a good boost. My focus this week will be to get that 202.4 under the 200 mark.

Meal
1 - toast w/pb
2 - veggies + dip
3 - ww pasta, o.oil, seasoning (left overs minus steak from last night)
4 - 2 hard boiled eggs
5 - 2 sm. chicken fajitas
(w lots of veggies, g.pepper, onion, carrot, zucchini) + salsa, low-fat sour cream
6 -

Water 64 fl.oz.

Sunday, November 5

Day 11

Meal
1 - toast w/pb
2 - apple
3 - veggies w/dip
4 - orange
5 - steak with ww pasta + seasoning
6 - cantaloupe + graham crackers w/PB

Water - 8 glasses

Saturday, November 4

Day 10


Meal
1 -
2 -
3 - late breakfast/lunch - bacon, eggs (mostly white), potato w/bacon
4 - cantaloupe
5 - steak, scalloped potatoes, corn
6 - whipped dessert (similar to cheese cake - low fat)

Water ??

Friday, November 3

Day 9

Persistence. Persistence. Persistence.
We keep hearing about how persistence is often the key to success. But what do you do when you've been striving for so long that it seems like your goal is never going to see light? How do you deal with the fear that you're about to fail? Simple. Give it just one more shot. And then one more. Think about the sweat and time you've committed already. You've come this far, you'd be unfair to yourself if you quit without a fight. Even if the odds are way out of your favor and you can't see how it can possibly help, reach out and take one last swing. You never know what will happen. Big, meaningful achievements don't just happen when everything goes your way. How many times have you seen tennis players make miraculous winning shots while lunging for a ball that seemed impossible to reach? Sometimes, you can find victory in the effort. www.sparkpeople.com

Meal
1 - toast w/PB + s.milk + tea
2 - banana
3 - left overs (1.5 cups ww pasta + tomatoe sauce) + 2 h.b.eggs
4 -
5 - pasta stew (w/m.balls + veggies)
6 - small piece of apple crumble + ice cream

At a friends house for dinner.

Water 72 fl.oz.

Thursday, November 2

Day 8


Meal
1 - 2 h.boiled egg, cantalope
2 - veggies + dip
3 - leftovers
4 - orange
5 - 3 slices of dry salami
6 - ww pasta + homemade marinare/tomatoe sauce,
7 - light dessert (coolwhip, cream cheese, graham cracker crumbs, fruit spread)

Water - 64 fl.oz.

Wednesday, November 1

Day 7

A Positive Way to Look at Yourself
Do you weigh your self-esteem on the bathroom scales? Do you "feel fat" some days? Do you compare your body to other people's?

If you answered YES to these questions you are not alone, many people, especially women, are dissatisfied with their bodies. Body image is the mental picture you have of your body plus the feelings and judgements you have about this picture. This picture is often very inaccurate and has little to do with how you actually look or how other people see you. With positive thoughts and lifestyle choices you can change your body image and how others respond to you.

Ten Steps For Building a Positive Body Image

1) ACCEPT YOURSELF- Feeling good about yourself starts with accepting who you are and how you look. After all, healthy bodies come in all shapes and sizes. For some people, it may mean giving up the fantasy that being slimmer would lead to a happier life. Focus on your good qualities and pass over any negatives. Feel what it's like to love your body unconditionally. Treat your body with a bubble bath, a massage, or a manicure.

2) STEP OFF THE DIET ROLLER COASTER FOR GOOD! - Dieting brings temporary weight loss, but 1/3 to 2/3 of the weight is usually gained back in the first year. Almost all the weight is gained back within five years and sometimes much more.The cycle of losing and gaining can be harmful to your health and it can lead to frustration, anger and an even poorer body image. So, stop dieting. Instead, eat well and enjoy being active.

3) ENJOY EATING WELL - Eat for energy and for pleasure. Follow Canada's Food Guide to Healthy Eating. Choose more grains, pasta, legumes, fruits and vegetables. Choose lower-fat dairy products, leaner meats and foods prepared with little or no fat and see how good they taste.Ask yourself if you are eating because of hunger or for some other reason. Learn to trust your body to tell you when to eat and when to stop.Don't worry about having a chocolate once in a while. The trick is to only "indulge" once in a while! Think of balancing what you eat over the day or the week and remember that moderation is the key.

4) ENJOY BEING ACTIVE - How about a noon-time walk, a family hike or a swim with friends? Physical activity lets you enjoy the outdoors and helps you deal with stress while making you feel more energetic. All this helps you feel good about yourself.

5) CREATE A MENTAL SPA - Right now, go ahead: breathe deeply and relax. Think of a place where you feel peaceful, relaxed and contented. Doesn't it feel good to slow down and let go of your responsibilities for a while? Experience the magic when you quiet your mind and let yourself enjoy the stillness.

6) MAKE YOUR IMAGINATION WORK FOR YOU - Everyone has 5000 thoughts every hour! And you can choose thoughts that encourage you, or ones that drag you down. Use your imagination to practice attitudes you want in your life. Act as if you like your body and feel what that's like.

7) LOOK YOUR BEST ALWAYS - How you keep yourself shows how you feel about yourself. Wear clothes that fit and give away the ones you never wear. For fun, try a new hair style, tie on a scarf or indulge in a new pair of earrings. And remember to smile. It gives you and everyone you meet a real boost.

8) GET SUPPORT FROM FAMILY AND FRIENDS - Ask for help when you need it. Organize a group of friends or find a buddy and help each other meet your goal to be the best you can be. Think of ways to create lots of fun and laughter for each other.

9) BE THANKFUL - To take your mind off negative thoughts, make a list of 10 things that give you pleasure and keep this where you can see it. Make another list of the beautiful aspects of yourself -- all the things your friends have complimented you on. This helps you realize how beautiful you really are.

10) EXPRESS YOUR CREATIVE SELF - Do things for fun -- instead of competing or trying to be perfect! Have fun expressing your personality through crafts, sewing, cooking, decorating, gardening or anything else that helps you feel happy. Know that you are unique and express it!

SUMMARY -- ONE POSITIVE STEP AT A TIME - Developing a positive body image is a gradual process. Relax, take your time, and congratulate yourself every step along the way as you learn to accept your body. And remember ... enjoy eating well, being active and feeling good about yourself.
http://www.healthunit.com/index.asp?mode=article&lang=english&articleID=10552


Meal
1 - halloween candy (10pts), cantalope + tea (no point in lying about it)
2 - halloween candy
3 - chicken, cheese, veggies + dip
4 - 2 h.boiled eggs
5 - curried chicken, peppers, onion + jasmine rice
6 -

Water

Tuesday, October 31

Day 6

Is lack of sleep robbing you of your goals?
If you surveyed the millions of us who don't get much sleep, chances are they'll say that the #1 reason they don't is "lack of time." In other words, people have too much to do to sleep. Late hours and frantic mornings are the rule. Who has time for more sleep? What this tired group doesn't realize is that a sleep debt is probably keeping them from acting and thinking at full strength, making even the easiest tasks harder to do. And take longer. Believe it or not, you can probably get more done in your day by getting more sleep. The mental and physical pick-up more than make up for that extra hour or two in bed. - www.sparkpeople.com


Meals
1 - toast w/pb, s.milk
2 - banana, almonds
3 - dry salami sand. with mustard, lettuce & ww bread + hummus, crackers
4 - orange
5 - Mr. Noddle
6 - halloween candy (I totally caved and eat mini chocolate bars)

Water 96 fl.oz.

Monday, October 30

Day 5


Meals
1 - toast w/pb, tea
2 - apple
3 - salad, 1 whole egg, 1 egg white, dressing + hummus, crackers
4 - almonds, apple
5 - 2 blue label hamberger with cheese + bun
6 -

Water 96 fl.oz.

Sunday, October 29

Day 4


Meals
1 - toast w/ PB + s.milk
2 - small slice of coffee cake
3 - ww roasted veggie pizza
4 - hummus, crackers, apple
5 - salmon, b. rice
6 - apple

Water
96 fl.oz.

Friday, October 27

Day 2

Are You Neglecting Your Body?
If you crave chocolate as much as Aunt Marge does, you know that nothing else could possibly come first. Her tastes aside, food can actually be more of a foundation than a passion. To have an enriching & healthy life, fitness is a must. Good eating can be part of that fitness springboard that makes bigger things possible. The next months and years are filled with hard work that takes energy and action. If you're starving your body, depriving it of what it needs, you're handicapping yourself in the race for your dreams. And if you're filling it with garbage, don't expect much in return. This all may seem obvious, but too many people sabotage themselves by ignoring that simple fact. For so long, we've been hearing so many bad things about different foods, it's almost as if food is our enemy, one that can kill us or ruin our lives. Truth is, food- good food- is the thing that makes everything else possible. - www.sparkpeople.com


Meals
1 - ww toast + PB + s.milk
2 -
3 -
4 -
5 -
6 -

Water

Thursday, October 26

Day 1

"There is a woman at the beginning of all good things" - Lamatine

Here I am again. Got on the scale this morning and WOW scary - 207.9lbs
I currently have 2 pairs of pants that fit comfortably, size 16 and a bunch of turtle neck sweaters, t-shirts and 2 blouses. My closet is full of clothing I can't fit into and a reminder of the confidence I use to dress myself with each morning. I don't feel necessarily less confident but my walk use to be stronger, my head held a little higher and my drive/ambition bigger/greater.

I've been saying for almost 6 months now that we'll start our family in another year, after I loose some weight. Well time is a wastin' and I'm only getting further and further away with each pound put on and each day wasted.

I know I can do this but I have got to go slow. I don't want, I can't, I WON'T fall off the wagon again. I promise to asses each meal and make sure it's the best it can be. And if not a workout I will do something just for me every single day.

I have so many fitness dvd's, books, books on tape, hypnosis cd's I HAVE the resources I just need to set aside a moment, 20-30 minutes to focus, visualize, dream, see where I'm going and do just a little each day to get there. Slowly but sure I know it will come. I will stop expecting huge changes in a matter of weeks and focus on each day, one day and not worry about tomorrow.

One of my clients and friends gave me some information probably a couple years ago now and this morning as I finally sit down and read it, really read it these 3 words stand out


Moderation - Consistency - Rest

This morning I'm ill prepared to eat properly today (no lunch/snacks) packed but I'll record it anyways so I can see it, read it, and make it real.

Meals
1 - 2waffles + l. syrup + 1 cup. milk + tea
2 -
3 - couscous n' lentil soup
4 - cheese
5 - steak + couscous recipe + salad w/l. ranch dressing
6 - pudding cup

Water - 96 fl.oz.

Friday, August 11

Day 11



8:30am - cereal + blueberries + skim milk - 5.5pts
11:00am - blueberries - .5pts

12:30pm - NV sweet n' salty bar - 4pts
2:00pm - chicken ceasar salad + fruit salad - 8pts
8:30pm - steak + corn on the cob -

Total Points: 18 pts
(allowed 24-29/day)

Thursday, August 10

Day 10

Totally weird night. I went to get an oil change after work, then to the post office before heading home. Sat down on the couch (5:45pm) hoping my husband would be back from a fire call shortly when bam I woke up at 9:30pm!!!!!!!!!! Then J finally came home around 9:45pm ice cream bars in tow. He was at a fire call all night.

8:30am - cereal + blueberries + skim milk - 5.5pts
11:30am - blueberries - .5pts

2:30pm - chicken + potato + veggies n' dip - 14pts
9:45pm - ice cream bar - 6pts

Total Points: 26 pts
(allowed 24-29/day)

Wednesday, August 9

Day 9

8:30am - cereal + blueberries + skim milk - 5.5pts
11:30pm -blueberries + NV sweet n' salty bar - 4pts

2:30pm - cucumber/tomatoe salad + lean turkey - 3pts
3:30pm - fudge - 6pts
8:30pm - hamburgers w/bun - 20pts

Total Points: 38.5 pts
(allowed 24-29/day)

Tuesday, August 8

Day 8

Ah yes........ back to work............ lucky me!

So on Friday considering it was pretty quite here at work I decided to bring in my balance/body ball whatever they call it. And that's what I've been using instead of a chair. I can definitely feel my body working harder on the ball then just lazing in my chair. I feel better about having to sit here all day long when it's on the ball vs. the chair. Feel like my body is working and it's going to benefit me in the long run. I wish I had of done this sooner but of course I worried what people would say and yes I did run into lots of laughs and snickers on Friday but today not so much, everyone is back to minding their own business while I get to put in 8 hours of core work! woohoo. Now of course my supervisor isn't back from her holiday so we'll see what kind of snide remarks I get from her tomorrow but over all now that people see that I haven't fallen off the ball and whipped out even the ladies upstairs said they'd like to give it a try!

8:30am - cereal + blueberries + skim milk - 5.5pts
12:30pm - salad (no dressing) + sliced turkey - 1pt

2:30pm - p. yogurt + blueberries + flaxseed - 2.5pts
4:30pm - JUNK + GARBAGE - 20pts
7:30pm - salad + steak - 8pts

Total Points: 37 pts
(allowed 24-29/day)


For those of you who are WW savy and wondering how I came up with 24 to 29pts per day I just took my extra alottment of points for wach week (35) and added that to my daily points count as not to make myself more frustrated with the counting and trracking stuff.

Monday, August 7

Day 7

General day of nothingness. Laundry, groceries, website updates, email, dishes, and my favorite part chilling out.

Eating was pretty out of wack besides dinner.

General picking at food all day and eating too many frozen yogurt pops (8pts)
7:00pm - sausage + salad (oil/vinegar dressing) - 12 pts
9:00pm - chocolate chips/peanut butter - 4pts

Total Points: 29pts
(allowed 24-29/day)

Sunday, August 6

Day 6

Sent to the waterfront again to make sure the dog (dad's dog) got a good swim. The waves where knocking him around so it didn't take long for him to get tired out. Then is was time for more website updates to my step mom's site. She's an artist and every 6 months we do a big update to her website of all her most recent paintings. Very exciting as she's started to sell a few with her most recent display at a law firm in Hamilton. And of course one more days work for dad and husband on the apartment. We had another superb lunch/dinner on the deck overlooking the neighborhood and valley below. Our house is weird the way it sits up on the hill, kind of like big brother of the neighborhood and we can see well past the houses that surround us.

8:30am - cereal + blueberries + skim milk - 5.5pts
4:30pm - bread + meats + cheese + dip + veggies - 14 pts
9:00pm - nibbles most of the evening - 10 pts

Total Points: 29.5 pts
(allowed 24-29/day)

Saturday, August 5

Day 5

Today my step mom and I went to Kempenfest, a rather large waterfront festival with hundreds of booths set up by artists displaying they're art, jewelry, wood work, paintings, photography, clothing etc. etc. for sale. We last about 2 hours by the time we found parking and got back out of town again. While we enjoyed the day my dad and husband where at the house working on the student apartment. It's getting there. Dad wants to spend one more day on it and then they're planning on heading home tomorrow so they can get a one days rest before the work week starts as Monday is a holiday.

8:30am - cereal + blueberries + skim milk - 5.5pts
1:30pm - roast beef n' cheddar whole wheat wrap + l. fat strawberry smoothie - 9pts

7:30pm - sausage + salad + corn + potatoes - 10pts
9:00pm - ice cream + strawberries - 5 pts

Total Points: 29.5 pts
(allowed 24-29/day)

Friday, August 4

Day 4


7:30am - cereal + blueberries + skim milk - 5.5pts
10:30am - p. yogurt + blueberries + flaxseed - 2.5pts
1:30pm - salad+ lean turkey + dressing + cheese- 5pts

2:20pm - chips - 4pts
3:30pm - peach +
10 almonds - 2pts
7:30pm - steak+ salad w/olive oil, vinager dressing + 1/2 slice rye bread - 10

9:00pm - green tea

Total Points: 21pts
(allowed 24-29/day)

Thursday, August 3

Day 3

My dad and step mom arrived today around noon. So far the plumbing is done in our little student apartment and tomorrow while my husband and I are at work they'll be continuing with the work. We both feel a little guilty that we're at work while they're renovating but at the same time I know my dad and he'll likely get where he wants to be with less help faster. He did say tonight he's exactly on track with where he thought he'd be with the project so that's awesome. I'm sure by the end of the weekend we'll be ready to slap on the paint and then over the next couple of weeks put the finishing touches on the place. Hang shelves, lights, finish the built-in bed etc.

7:15am - cereal + strawberries + skim milk + green tea- 5pts
10:30am - p. yogurt + strawberries + flaxseed - 2.5pts
1:30pm - cucumber + cherry tomatoes + olive oil + lean turkey- 3pts
3:30pm - small nectarine - 0.5pts
5:30pm - 10 almonds - 2pts

8:30pm - bbq chicken breast + salad w/olive oil, vinager dressing + 1/2 slice rye bread - 8

9:00pm - green tea

Total Points: 21pts
(allowed 24-29/day)

Wednesday, August 2

Day 2

7:30am - cereal + strawberries + skim milk - 5pts
11:30am - p. yogurt + 1/2 banana + flaxseed - 2.5pts
2:00pm - whole wheat bun + dijon + spinach + lean ham - 5pts
3:30pm - small nectarine - 0.5pts
4:30pm - 10 almonds - 2pts

5:30pm - cheese + lean s. meat - 4pts
7:30pm - ceasar salad + roasted chicken - 6pts
8:30pm - handful of chocolate chips - 1pt


Total Points: 26pts
(allowed 24-29/day)


Workout consisted of moving all the crap from our little student apartment (in the works) to the garage and all the stuff in the furnace room to the garage or other places through out the house - 2 hours all together. Not a sweat like TJ but I wasn't sitting on the couch all night either.

Wow does that ever look like alot of food! The biggest thing for me has always been breakfast and letting my body go too long without food. So far so good!

Tuesday, August 1

DAY 1

I don't feel right about continuing with my 40 + days count because I've pretty much fallen off the wagon for the last 10 days and a good 30 days of that I wasn't working out. So today I post to my blog another day one and a desire and promise to myself to do better.

My focus this week is breakfast. I always eat this meal around 9:30 or 10am which is hours after I wake up each day. This morning I got up at 7am and had a bowl of Kashi crunch whole grain cereal + skim-milk + strawberries. I'm honestly suprised at how much I enjoyed it. lol And then this morning at 10:30am I had a snack. Plain yogurt + strawberries + 1tsp flax seed. I just received the diet guide info I purchased from someone on ebay so I'm trying to stick to that minus one snack.

I also got on the scale this morning and before me flashed the whooping 200.0 lbs. Personally I'm thinking an even 200 is a pretty good place to start and work my way down for good. I'm going to have my husband hide the scales so I can't get my hands on them. I've decided (after seeing a clip from Oprah) that I'm going to give my body the fair chance it needs to get into this eating and exercise routine and not weight myself for 2 months maybe longer depending on how good I'm feeling and looking. The scale can be such a huge distator of my mood from one day/week to the next (and I try not to weight myself more then a couple times a week). I realize more now then ever that my body is going need a little time to adjust and if I get on that scale I'm setting myself up for failure if I decide that day that the number has dropped or hasn't dropped far enough.

So here's a breakdown of where I stand today:

Weight - 200lbs
Neck - 14 3/4
Chest - 44 1/2
Waist @ bely button - 40
Hips - 47 1/2
L.Bicep - 14
R.Bicep - 14
L.Thigh - 24
R.Thigh - 23 1/2


My ultimate goal is gettng to an ideal weight that I feel I can maintain. I'm trusting my body for now to tell me what that is vs. saying I want to loose 70 lbs. My drive and focus comes from the fact that in another year my husband and I want get our family started. Not only am I focusing on my own health but his and our financial well being. I know everyone always says that you'll never have enough money to be able to afford kids but I do want less debt then we have now. We really want to be able to enjoy being pregnant and bringing this child into the world so the less we have to worry about other then daycare and how much of what we're going to need the better. At least that's my point of view right now I'm sure there are mothers/parents out there that would feel differently. But for now that's where my heads at.

7:00am - whole grain cereal + strawberries + skim-milk - 5pts
10:30am - p. yogurt + strawberries + ground flax seed - 2.5pts
12:00pm - cucumber & tomatoe salad + olive oil + parmessan - 2pts

3:00pm - chips - 4pts
9:00pm - okay eat something completely bad and aweful but this is my blog and I want to be honest and count the points - 25pts (but I'm not going to let this meal throw me off course for another 2 weeks)


Total Points: 38.5 pts
(allowed 24-29/day)


Photo shoot tonight so no time for a workout. Although some people might not see this as a difficult thing to do let me fill you in. I shoot intimate photographes of pregnant moms and it does get my heart rate going. I want my clients to feel comfortable and at ease and I work hard to make sure that every woman that leaves my studio is feeling good and proud of her growing belly. I'm always wiped after a shoot but it's a feeling of tiredness and complete happiness. I love it when I have a session with an expectant mom, young family, baby or toddler. Just so much fun!!

Thursday, July 27

Day 42 to 45

I can pretty much say this week has been a write off. I've been wiped out by this NYC trip (or perhaps that's just my excuse, yeah probably my excuse knowing me the way I do.

Trying to refocus. I've been consumed by all things baby this week. It's as though it's everywhere I look lately. More and more people we know and I love the hunt for a great deal on ebay and reading/lurking on many blogs to read up on other women's perspectives of motherhood.

But it's not my time yet. I have to start treating my body better and get myself into shape before I'll even try to get pregnant. I want so much to do this the right way. I'm not saying I need to be a skinny minny but I need to respect my body and what it's capable of before we start trying to start a family not only for myself but for my husband and our future and the future of our kids. Who wants to have a lazy ass mom with shit for body image and too tired to play. Not me, the cycle stops here!

Sunday, July 23

Day 41

So exhausted. made it back to burlington around 7am then drove home. was home around 8:40am, husband made me breakfast and then I gave him all his fire t-shirts and then we popped in a movie and I fell asleep, sleept until noon before he woke me to move me upstairs and then he woke me up at 3pm so I'd be able to sleep all night still. Great trip but something I'd only do once a year unless I was at least one night in a hotel. sleeping 2 nights on a bus is exhausting but I will say we slept so much better on the way home! Out like a light!

Foods Eaten
middle of the night

orea + 1/2 a pepsi - 3pts

9am
eggs + sausage + watermelon - 7pts

3:30
1/2 a ham sandwich - 3pts

7:00pm

corn + spinach + roast beef - 10pts

Snacks

chips - 5pts
licorice - 4pts

Water - 99 fl.oz. of 99

Total Points:
__ pts
(allowed 24/day)

Workout: no workout

Saturday, July 22

Day 40

In NYC!! What a day it was. I'll write a more complete post detailing the trip later.

Foods Eaten
breakfast

eggs, sausage, toast, hash browns, skim-milk - 10pts

Lunch
multi-grain pasta, tomato marinara sauce - 8pts

dinner

1/2 a turkey burger w/swiss + fries - 20pts
light cold beer - 2pts

Snacks

green tea - 0

Water - 64 fl.oz. of 99

Total Points:
40 pts
(allowed 24/day)

Workout: waking/shopping/sight-seeing all over NYC from 8am to 9pm

Friday, July 21

Day 39

left for NYC city.


Workout: no workout

Thursday, July 20

Day 38

Foods Eaten
10:00am

banana - 2pts

1:00pm
left overs - 8pts


7:30pm
pork shops, spinach, b.rice - 10pts


Snacks

cheese - 2pts
kiwi - 0 pts

Water - 64 fl.oz. of 99

Total Points:
22 pts
(allowed 24/day)

Workout: no workout

Wednesday, July 19

Day 37

Today my husband finally rec'd the call we've been hoping for. A new job offer. The company he's currently with has been inconsistent when it comes to hours and they're back peddling hard saying they didn't promise him 40 hrs/wk when he came on full-time. More people with a little common sense would say well lets see he left a good paying job making $4 more /hour to go work for this other company why wouldn't he exact a guarantee of 40 hours/week oh and also he just bought a house in November and got married in May. Give your head a shake why would anyone make a move to less money without knowing they where still going to make 40+ hrs/week so that they knew the bills would be covered!!!! Anyways this new job looks very promising steady income, hours, training provided and uniforms paid for....... Excellent. So next week my husband will be off to do a couple of hours of job training and if he likes it (duh!!!) they'll write up the job offer!! woohooooo

Foods Eaten
10:00am

banana - 2pts

11:30am
cucumber, carrots, small piece of chicken - 2pts


2:00pm
chicken curry - 5pts
turkey, cheese - 3pts
pudding - 2pts

7:30pm
wwheat pasta + hamburger n' tomatoe sauce - 10pts

Snacks

pear - 1pt
fy pop - 2pts

Water - 64 fl.oz. of 99

Total Points:
27 pts
(allowed 24/day)

Workout: no workout

Tuesday, July 18

Day 36

I left leave work early afternoon today to head home and do some product photography for my employer. The way I see it I'm not dragging all that stuff into the office when I'm not being paid an appropriate wage to tack on "photographer" to my job title. So the bonus is I'll take the stuff home and shoot it there. And take an extra hour for myself. Only fair?! right?? Husband and I went downtown to check out the shops and grab a treat (hence the fudge, yummy goodness).

Foods Eaten
9:30am
melba toast, turkey, cheese - 3pts

1:00pm
Lasagna - 6pts

7:30pm
bbq chicken thighs, rice, cucumber - 8pts

Snacks

cheese + turkey - 3pts
fudge - 6pts


Water - 100 fl.oz. of 99

Total Points:
26 pts
(allowed 24/day)

Workout: TJ - CP3 - such an awesome workout, getting better at this, feeling more coordinated but man was I wiped by the end of it.

Monday, July 17

Day 35

4 more sleeps till I find myself on a bus to NYC!!!! Can't Wait!


Foods Eaten
10:00am

watermelon - 2pts

1:00pm
dinner left overs - 5pts

chips - 4pts

7:30pm
indian rice dish - 11pts

Snacks

pudding - 2pts
carrots

Water - 100 fl.oz. of 99

Total Points:
24 pts
(allowed 24/day)

Workout: TJ - CP1 + 3T

Sunday, July 16

Day 34


Foods Eaten
10:00am
fruit n' yogurt - 3pts

1:30pm

melba toast, cheese, turkey - 4pts

6:30pm

bruchetta on flat bread - 6pts
roasted veggie wrap w/fries - 14pts

Snacks
F. Y pops - 4pts

ice cream - 4 pts

Water - 99 fl.oz. of 99

Total Points:
35 pts
(allowed 24/day)

Workout: TJ - CP3

Saturday, July 15

Day 33

Spent the better part of our day at the Scottish Festival. So awesome! I love the bag pipes. And it makes me feel so close to my Grampy who's been gone now for 2 years. After we finally made our way home around 2:30pm we crashed on the couch and I eventually fell asleep. I little bit too much fresh air and sunlight and not enough water!

Foods Eaten
10:00am
fruit n yogurt - 3pts

milk - 2pts

11:00pm

chip truck fries 1/2 shared with my husband - 12pts

8:30pm

steak, veggies, rice - 8pts

Snacks

frozen yogurt lollipop - 2pts
strawberries - 1pts

Water - 64 fl.oz. of 99

Total Points:
28 pts
(allowed 24/day)


Workout: no workout, completely beat by being outside in the sun from 9am to 2:30pm at the scottish festival.

Friday, July 14

Day 32

Something to think about........

Getting specific about your goals
"Are your goals detailed enough for you to reach them? We all have aspirations and we are better off for having made them. But if your goals are too vague or unstructured, you'll find that attaining them is difficult. Wanting to lose 30 pounds is a wonderful goal, but it needs a plan to get you on the right track. These things don't happen overnight. Today, think about your goals and form a plan to achieve them. Write them down, chart your progress, refer to them as often as you need to stay on track, and most importantly, hold yourself accountable." sparkpeople.com

I need to do this. I need a plan of action that's more detailed then just saying I want to be healthy and fit and eventually be able to have healthy babies. I guess if I could describe my plan right now... its to work out 5-6 days per week, eat better, count ww points, drink tons of water and blog. Baby steps.

Foods Eaten
10:00am
apple bar - 2pts


1:30pm
chicken parmessan - 5pts

7:30pm
porkchops, couscous -

Snacks
pear - 1pt
pudding - 2pts


Water - 32 fl.oz. of 99

Total Points:
10 pts
(allowed 24/day)

Workout: TJ - PKJ

Thursday, July 13

Day 31

Got in 2 workouts tonight to make up for missing last night, not that my eating yesterday would have helped. This week has just flown by! I've been pulling double duty as one of the ladies in my office is on vacation so I'm doing some invoicing which is distracting but an interesting change for my afternoons.

Off to NYC next friday night on an over night shopping trip with my step mom, aunt and their gf. I can't wait. we board a bus late friday night, wake up in Manhattan and shop till we drop jump back on the bus late saturday night and they drive us back home. It's going to be insane but a welcome change of pass for the weekend. I spend sometime today planning out some places I want to go.

1. for my husband, the NYC Fire store (he's a volunteer with our city) and
2. B&H photo and video, fingers crossed I can find another lens for my camera!

Foods Eaten
10:00am
watermelon - 2pts


1:30pm
curry chicken - 5pts
carrots

8:30pm
porkchop, potatoes, spinach - 6pts

Snacks
pear - 1pt
cheese + lean sand. meat - 4pts
frozen yogurt pop - 2pts

Water - 99 fl.oz. of 99

Total Points:
20 pts
(allowed 24/day)

Workout: TJ - CP1 + 3T (figured I better make up for no workout yesterday!)



Wednesday, July 12

Day 30

As I was working out last night I kept thinking could I teach this someday? I'm so amazing at how well Robbie has done and the progress and changes he's made in his life. I'm starting to realize (with constant reminders) that this isn't going to happen over night, not in 2 months, maybe not even in 6 months and it's going to take the better part of a year if not longer.... my weight will likely always be some what of an issue I'll have to keep a close eye on (being heavy runs in my family). I guess I'm just finally starting to accept that fact, that I can't throw in the towel in another month because I don't look like Mindy or Annarita yet! But I guess I take a lot of comfort knowing that if I do loose this weight slow and steady I'm going to be able to maintain it... and that is going to be the biggest reward of all.

Being a fit and healthy wife, mom, business woman...... those are the things I want for my future. I want to play with my kids, I want to shoot 5 photo shoots in a day and have energy to be with my family and my husband.

Foods Eaten
10:00am
watermelon - 2pts


1:30pm
dinner leftovers - 5pts
veggies + dip - 2pts

7:00pm
ceasar salad + chicken - 10pts

Snacks
pudding - 2pts
ice cream - 8pts

Water - 99 fl.oz. of 99

Total Points:
29 pts
(allowed 24/day)

Workout: rest


Tuesday, July 11

Day 29

This came from Sparkpeople.com daily reflections today.
"Valuing time before it is too late. Often our days are busied with worry, stress, complaining, work, and a general wasting of time. Once we finally realize the value of our time, often for many of us it is too late. While your life might seem like a long time in the midst of it, truly it is a blink of an eye. Today, make more time to be present in your life. Even small moments—enjoying a cup of tea, calling a friend, reading a favorite book—should be enjoyed. Restructure your day so that you can get all of your work done, but allow for extra time to be spent on personal matters. Stop procrastinating!"


Foods Eaten
10:00am
watermelon - 2pts


1:30pm
Ham, veggies + dip - 3pts


7:00pm
beef n' rice w/spinach - 7pts

Snacks
Pear - 1pt
pudding - 2pts
ice cream - 8pts

Total Points: 23 pts
(allowed 24/day)

Water - 80 fl.oz. of 99

Workout: TJ-3T

Monday, July 10

Day 28

Foods Eaten
10:00am
apple breakfast bar - 2pts


1:30pm
BAD, very very bad - chicken + fries - 20pts


7:00pm
quesadillas with chicken, spinach, g. pepper, cheese - 8pts


Snack
pudding pak - 2pts

Water - 80 fl.oz. of 99

Total Points:
32 pts
(allowed 24/day)

Workout: Turbo Jam Cardio Party

Sunday, July 9

Day 27

Workout - TJ 3T band workout

Saturday, July 8

Day 26

Workout - Cardio Party - I just love this workout, so fantastic!

Friday, July 7

Day 25

No workout accomplished today. Right after work I went to visit with a friend and then another friend before making my way home again around 9:30pm.

Day of rest! sortof...

Thursday, July 6

Day 24

So tired today. I'm just wiped, thank goodness it's a short week this week. I'm looking forward to a couple of days of down time. And luckily my husband is suppose to be off this weekend. Maybe we'll be able to get some stuff done around the house. Anyways back to work another day of blah here at work. I say back to work but I'm just trying to make myself look as busy as possible today. One of those days that my body feels completely restless and I can't handle being in front of the computer, sitting at this desk for hours!

Tonight I'm undecided which TJ workout I'll do but definitely one of the ones I have yet to try.

Foods Eaten
10:00am
apple breakfast bar - 3pts

1:20pm
Herbed Chicken - 6pts


8:00pm
3 chicken thighs w/new potatoes - 8pts

Snacks
frozen lollipop - 2pts
watermelon - 2 pt

Water - 64fl.oz. of 99

Total Points:
21 pts
(allowed 24/day)

Workout: TJ Lower body - this one is shorter then the others and not as sweat driven but effective to say the least. I'm sure I'll be feelin' it tomorrow!

Wednesday, July 5

Day 23 - July 5

Turbo Jam workout - DONE! (CP3)
Almost didn't get it done, worked out at 8pm after a short nap. I had work to do for my small business but knew that I wouldn't be able to get anything done if I didn't do this one thing for myself.

I really do love the TJ workout even though it takes a few tries to get it down just right. It is fun and Chalene keeps you motivated. during the day I'll find myself daydreaming about the workout or I can hear the music in my head.

Tuesday, July 4

Day 22

Well this is a little depressing. I have just realized that it is day 22 and I have yet to really start the most beneficial things(in my eyes) of my whole getting healthy and fit campaign.

Yesterday was a good day I actually did some gardening. Put in some plants in the flower beds my sweet husband prepared several weeks ago, long before the wedding day! oops. But today I can feel it.... my body is tired and a little sore but I feel alive, tired, but alive. I know I accomplished more then just the stuff I can always get done at the computer!

So tonight I will finally pop in Turbo Jam and do a workout...... something I haven't managed to do since March!

Turbo Jam Workout - done! (CP2) Yes, Yes, Yes finally on my way!!!

Saturday, June 24

Day 12

made a note to start a post but never got it done the day of!

Friday, June 23

Day 11

What can I say....it's finally Friday! My wonderful husband is running around picking up everything we'll need for tomorrow. We're having an open house and have invited many people that we couldn't have to the wedding. Should be a lot of fun, not a huge crowd expected but I'm sure that will make everything just right.

Foods Eaten
10:30am
NV PB bar - 5 pts

1:30pm
Chicken Caesar salad - 5pts
Fruit salad - 2pts
Lindt Chocolate - 6pts

6:00pm


Water - 32 fl.oz. of 99.4

Total Points: 18pts (allowed 24/day - 5/35 weekly allowance used)

Thursday, June 22

Day 10

Foods Eaten

9:30am
Banana - 2 pts

1:30pm
Couscous n lentil instant soup - 3pts
piece of bbq chicken - 2pts

6:00pm
Crackers, pepperoni, cheese -9 pts

Fries - ?? not sure

Water - 70 fl.oz. of 99.4

Total Points: 24pts (allowed 24/day - 5/35 weekly allowance used)

Wednesday, June 21

Welcome to Reality!

When you're beating yourself up mentally because you can't loose those last 10 pounds so you look like the women/men in the magazines check this website out.

I particularly enjoy the "shaping" section.
Day 9

Well it finally happened I ran into what we'll call an old friend/colleague/coworker. We originally worked together at one of my first jobs which started as a co-op and our friendship took off, we did everything together. She a single mom, myself a young and impressionable woman wanting to get to work and make a good impression. So we ended up starting a little business on the side while we where working together, not long after I learned my contract was coming to an end and I'd be moving on to other things. And I decided I'd jump 2 feet first into running our little business. Ultimately I made the decision that I couldn't run this business with her in it because I needed to make it work on my terms and not worry about having to pay her her share when I'm relying solely on the income to look after myself. And I had a sense that she was starting to think she had groomed me for lack of a better word into the 'young business woman' that I was. Which is ridiculous because not only did I do everything to start our business (minus doing the logo personally) but I also had started a business at only 17 years old in my hometown amongst other achievements in my young career. Anyways I'm getting off track. So I had 'the talk' and told her I needed to go it on my own to which she informed me if I ever did 'this' (start a division of the business that had always been her dream) she'd drag my name through the mud in this city that I'd never be able to find work. Nice eh?! So as time passed after I left that work place we saw each other less and less. She met a guy, I met a guy and she married her guy in a surprise wedding to which I didn't know I was suppose to be there taking the pictures because I was with my guy and we where suppose to be up north visiting his friends (but I ended up sick and he took care of me all weekend).

So it finally happened, this was almost 3 years ago and I finally ran into her at the print business we both still use. I was shocked, I gave her a brief hug, good to see you was said, I said how are you and she said good, I admired her little girl (1 1/2 yrs. old now) and then carried on with my business at the printers. She never once asked me 'how are you doing??'

I've gone through ups and downs of worrying about running into this woman, sometimes wishing we where still friends, sometimes thanking god we aren't but if anything I do realize this, she came into my life for a short time to teach me something about myself. I didn't like who I became when I was with her. Someone who would look down on other people that weren't dressed just right or heavy, someone who would gossip about others, someone who put their whole self worth on how well I was dressed or how slim I was....... It didn't feel good that other friends kept their distance when I was around her and that I actually fought with one of my closer friends over something I did that was completely and totally wrong and hurtful for me to do to her. I hadn't hurt someone that way since grade school when I told a guy I liked that he deserved better then the girl he was dating. Sick! But when I walked into the printers and saw her standing there all I wanted was to be thin, for her to see me thin because this would mean (in her eyes) I was doing great. But I couldn't tell her (because she didn't even care to ask) I married an awesome man, we are so in love, we bought a house and we're going to start a family someday, and I have so many people in my life that believe in me just as I am and I feel good about just being me. I couldn't tell her because she didn't even care to ask. I'm not going to beat myself up about trying to figure out what she's thinking and why things happened the way they did. I guess if anything I served a purpose in her life too and now........... That time has passed.

Foods Eaten
10:30am
NV PB bar - 5pts

1:30pm
Burger on 1/2 a bun w/cheese - 9pts
Multi-grain chips - 5pts


8:30pm
bbq chicken - 2pts
ceasar salad - 3pts

Water - 64fl.oz. of 99.4

Total Points:
25pts (allowed 24/day - 5/35 weekly allowance used)

Tuesday, June 20

A few wedding pictures. We'll consider these "before" shots in terms of measurable weightloss. These are just afew of my favourites. As a photographer I had to search for 6 months before I found a photographer that not only was I happy with the quality of their work but they came back to me with a price I was willing to pay and yes I wanted all the digital files included in that price. Alas we found Pam at a k-w bridal show and I couldn't be happier with the pictures she and her assistant took.

During the ceremony
Mom (in blue), officiant, flower girl, maid of honour - my sister, us, & our best man

Pictures at Mill Race Park after the ceremony and all the family grouping pictures which was close to torture as a photographer and not being the one giving the direction! lol

Our beautiful little flower girl who it turned out was completely taken with my sister. The flower girl is also the best man's daughter.

Bridal party

Thanks to all our family and friends for making
it such an amazing and special day!

Day 8

So when the heck am I going to get into the excercise part of my healthy lifestyle?? I'm hosting an open house this weekend for all our friends and colleagues we couldn't have at the wedding so after we get this last bit of wedding celebrating out of the way I'll be good. Tired but it will all be over. And then all that will be left to do is write the thank-you notes... I don't even want to think about that just yet. No excuses now that we've rec'd the pictures from our photographer. And don't forget the paperwork of changing my last name.

So with the help of sparkpeople.com I have a weight-lifting program 3 days a week and I'm adding Turbo in for the cardio days. And I really want to get back into walking on my lunch breaks whenever I can. I'm really bad at not taking my breaks and always eating lunch at my desk. I need to get away from this place so I can recharge my batteries and be pumped to go home and workout after a long days work. Well not that long only 8:30 to 4:30pm which are great hours but this place will suck the life out of you if given the chance and I've already put in just over a year of chances.

Foods Eaten
9:00am
NV PB bar - 5pts
1 small plum - 1 pt

1:30pm
instant veggie chili - 4pts

7:30pm
dinner at caseys - small variety of appatizers shared with husband - 18pts


Water - 50 fl.oz. of 99.4

Total Points:
28pts (allowed 24/day - 4/35 weekly allowance used)

Monday, June 19

Day 7

Today I had a meeting afterwork with another small business owner turned personal friend. But the meeting was first dinner then some talk about photography and doing a brochure and then another client turned personal friend joined us for dessert. Dinner was very good and I was starving which is terrible because I completely overate. Also if there is ever anyone out there that is hard to say 'no' to it's her. Usually I have a pretty strong back bone but she would literally be offended if I didn't eat while in her home. I know I need to sort this problem out because I honestly value her friendship and hope it will continue for many years to come but I'm going to have to limit my visiting hours if I can't put my foot down and make sure she knows I can't eat more then what is already on my plate. Oh and did I mention she's a chocolatier??? You know just the icing on the cake......... should probably only visit on cheat meal days!!!

Tomorrow is a new day!

Foods Eaten
9:00am
NV PB bar - 5pts

1:00pm
veggie + dip - 2pts
2 oz. cheese + veggie crackers - 4pts

6:00pm

Tortillini - 8pts
Tomato & Cucumber salad w/vinegar bassed dressing - 3pts
Bread - 4pts
Fruit pieces & marble cake style bread - 6pts

Water - 100fl.oz. of 99.4

Total Points:
32pts (allowed 24/day - 43/35 weekly allowance used)
Day 6 - Happy Father's Day!

Today was cheat meal day. We where visiting my dad and step mom and where heading to a family gathering late afternoon. I will say I was more controlled that I have been in the past at one of these family gatherings. I love going to visit my 'step' aunt and uncle we have so much fun, lots of laughter, good music and company and of course food lots and lots of food. It was a bbq and not only did we have chicken but also on the grill was steak and sausage. We had roasted vegetables, a pasta salad, greek salad, and another spinach salad mixture with an olive oil dressing. And after dinner was done came of course dessert....... a variety of deserts 4 to be exact. So how well did I do?? Not bad. I over did it a bight with the smoked/salty almonds. But here's a break down.

Foods Eaten
10:30am - green tea

4:00pm - almonds, 2 scoops of the tortilla dip

6:00pm - roasted vegetables, 3oz. chicken, 3oz. steak, 2 helpings of salads, 1/2 cup pasta salad


8:30pm - dessert - half a piece of black forest cake, a piece of the pistachia version of sex in a pan


11:45pm - another piece of pistachio dessert

Water - 100fl.oz. of 99.4
I was drinking water like crazy and nothing else. Usually I'd have wine but I decided to stick to the water, 1. I was driving home and 2. I didn't need the extra sugar. I was saving that for dessert!

Total Points:
??pts (no idea nor do I want to know - I think I can write off the balance of weekly allowance pts) (allowed 24/day - 35/35 weekly allowance used)

Then is was the drive home. A 2 hour drive home. We crawled into bed around mid-night finally. I'm sure it will catch up to us later in the week. But it was worth it to see everyone and watch our wedding video too with our extended family. So much fun to see almost a month after the big day. :-)
Day 5 - Saturday June 17

Last night I over indulged on 3 of my 2 pt. frozen yogurt pops. Knocked the points off my the extra allowance for the week. I was so board and just couldn't sit still. My husband was working his last day of nights and I couldn't wait to share the weekend with him. Eventually fell asleep on the couch watching a movie and then he finally came home around 2am.

Foods Eaten
9:30am
Banana - 2 pts

1:30pm
NV PB bar (2) - 5 pt

4pm
picnic lunch - bread, meat, cheese, veggies, dip & fruit - 6pts


7:30pm
BBQ - chicken thighs - 6pts
Greek Salad - 9pts

Water - 64 fl.oz. of 99.4

Total Points:
28pts (allowed 24/day - 30/35 weekly allowance used)

Friday, June 16


Day 4

I can't wait to sleep a little later tomorrow. To not have to get out of bed at the sound of an alarm clock or rather the music it plays is awesome. Luckily my internal clock wakes me up around 9am which isn't sleeping in considering sleeping in use to mean I was getting up around 12noon or later depending on the previous nights events. Tomorrow my husband (love calling him that now, yeah! 3 weeks married today) are planning to do some work around the house/yard and then head south to visit my Dad and Step mom for the rest of the weekend. Sunday afternoon will be spent with lots of family in celebration of fathers day. And of course we'll get to see Brandy (my brother, technically speaking, I'm sure only dog lovers will think I'm not completely crazy) He went in for an operation on his back leg Wednesday and the vet said he's doing good and is already trying to stand on it. Thank goodness! As my step mom doesn't have any kids (other then my sister and I of course) Brandy is definitely considered to be her "baby" in every sense of the word. She cried when they dropped Brandy off for us to baby sit for 2 weeks and then she cried again when we brought him home, I'm sure those where happy tears though!

Foods Eaten
8:45am
Strawberries + NV PB sweet n' salty bar- 5 pt


11:30am
Veggies + dip - 2pts

2:00pm
Roasted Veggie Lasagna - 6pts


6:00pm
Blue pc chicken pizza - 11pts

Water - ____fl.oz. of 99.4

Total Points:
24pts (allowed 24/day - 22/35 weekly allowance used)

Thursday, June 15

Day 3

Foods Eaten
10:00am
Nature Valley granola Bars (2 pcs.) - 5pts.
Small Plum - 1 pt

1:00pm
7 grain curry cold salad - 5pts
ww crackers - 2pts
Veggie + dip - 2 pts

7:30pm
Curried chicken and rice - 11pts

Veggie + dip - 2 pts

9:00pm
Frozen Yogurt pop - 2pts

Water - 94fl.oz. of 99.4

Total Points:
30pts (allowed 24/day - 22/35 weekly allowance used)

It's amazing how much you can eat in a day....yikes!!! It all adds up without thinking about it. I've noticed over the last couple of days all the times I wanted to grab something else to eat. I know I'm an emotional eater. I'll eat when I'm sad, happy, board....and the list goes on. Being conscience of what I put in my mouth I think is my biggest struggle. And making sure I don't grab a chocolate bar to reward myself for loosing the first 5 lbs (when that day comes, shortly I hope! lol) that I haven't succeeded in changing my thinking and thus my health.

Wednesday, June 14


So I thought I'd try to liven things up a bight and make my blog more interesting with a picture. I promise there will be many more in the future (being a photographer and all). But here's one with me in front of the camera, our wedding day. Almost three weeks ago now we tied the knot. We've been together 2 1/2 years now and it was just an awesome, awesome day! I can't wait to get all the professional shots back! This one was taken by my Aunt. And I've had a few emails from my Uncle confirming some peoples names for the video. Something else I can't wait to see as one of my parent's friends was doing the video work and well........... he's hilarious and I'm sure he probably caught many people off guard with his questions! I'll post more pics in the next couple of weeks.

I have noticed now that the big day has come and gone I'm not sure what to do with myself. It's weird to try and refocus on other things again now that the wedding isn't such a huge distraction from my regular day to day life. I guess that's why I'm turning my focus on healthy living. I want it to become second nature before we start our family. We both need to shed some weight and knowing how to look after ourselves first will make us better parents in the long run.
Day 2

So today I'm planning on going straight home rather then run errands which I've done so far this week. And I can hit country produce, love that grocery store, before they close. I need to get my veggie bags all cut up and sorted. I like to prepare individual veggie bags with a variety of veggies so my husband or I can grab it and go. And also need to boil up some hard boiled eggs, something else I enjoy tossing in my lunch box.

Foods Eaten
9am
Nature Valley granola Bars (2 pcs.) - 5pts.

11am
hummus and ww crackers - 3pts

1:30pm
Small salad with crap meat and dressing - 3pts
2 cups of watermelon - 2pts

4:00pm
NV sweet n' salty bar - 4pts

7:00pm
Cauliflower n' dip - 1pt
PC Blue chicken pizza - 11pts

Water - 64 fl.oz. of 99.4

Total Points:
29pts (allowed 24/day - 16/35 weekly allowance used)

Tuesday, June 13

Day 1

Weight: 198.8
Resting Heart Rate: beats/minute: I'll try to remember to check in the morning


I'm undecided about posting pictures but it does make things more interesting overall.

Measurements
Neck - 14.5
Bust - 45.5
Waist - 40
Hips - 46.5

L Thigh - 25
R Thigh - 24.5

L Bicep - 14
R Bicep - 14

Foods Eaten
9am
Nature Valley granola Bars (2 pcs.) - 2pts. (oops, actually 5pts.)

1:30pm
Chicken Caesar salad - 4pts.
Burger w/cheese - 6pts (went a little overboard with lunch)
2 cups of Veggies with dip - 2pts.

6:30PM

2 cups of whole wheat pasta w/olive oil & spice - 18pts.

Water - 96 fl.oz. (recommended water intake 99.4 fl.oz.)

Total Points: 35pts (allowed 24 - 11/35 allowance used)

WW gives you 35 points each week on top of your daily point allowance

Okay enough is enough I've had it with this weight stuff and I can't keep telling myself this is okay. There is so much I want for my future and life that being heavier is going to get in the way off. So today slowly but surely I'm going to make the changes and build on small life changes in order to finally become the person, the woman that I want to be. Healthy, active and full of energy to share with those around me.

I can't set a number in terms of weight loss I think my body will tell me when I've made it to my goal weight. I'm currently 198.8 lbs. I've already tried just about everything under the sun and mentally I know I have all the tools for success I just need to put those tools to work for me. Every time I've tried to loose weight before I throw myself at it full force and ultimately I can't keep up the pace I set for myself and within 6 weeks I've fallen off the wagon. I have a number of beachbody.com products. P90, Slim in 6, Power Half Hour, and most recently Turbo Jam (which I love). I love it and when I was sticking with it I saw inches lost in minimal time but well my husband and I just got married the end of May and planning the big day pretty much took over my life. I've always thought in the past oh this would be the perfect incentive, or this, or my wedding day and no, no, no! It never works. It never keeps me going long enough to feel like I've succeeded. So what are my plans to take off the weight?

For now....

Exercise: First things first, Turbo Jam. I really did love these DVD's when I first received them and I know if I start small I can build on it. So today I will commit to doing a Turbo Jam workout at least 3 days out of the week. And the other 3 will be 20 minute weight programs as outlined on sparkpeople.com for me.

Food: I'm going to allow myself one cheat meal a week. (I got this tool from Weight Watchers) And I'm going to stick with the point system, again from WW. I've tried to follow my eating using fitday.com and sparkpeople.com and it becomes a chore, even sitting at a computer all day you'd think I'd enjoy the distraction from work but nope never seem to be able to keep it up. I think the point system keeps things pretty simple and keeps me aware of just how much food I'm putting in my mouth.

So why?
Well I'll elaborate on that further in another post. And I'll also post my measurements later too. I have also learned in the past that inches lost makes you feel a thousand times better then the number on the scale some days.